thoughts

recently, i have been having thoughts about where my life will take me. my life has changed quite a bit since i came to berkeley. the path i always thought i would take has come to an end for me. over the path couple of months, i've been trying to figure out what exactly it is i want to do with my life, figure out new goals for myself. its been a couple of months now and i still question what i do with my life. where would my life take me?

since coming to berkeley, i have grown quite a bit. having gone to a boarding school before i came her, living independently and being on my own hasn't been a problem for me. but, the journey thus far has not been a breeze. over the past year and half, i've learned a lot about myself and how to live my life. i have learned that what i thought was my future was not really what i should be doing. growing up, i have always thought that science was the path to success for me and the goal i have been working for since i went to school. my schedules were packed with science and math classes for the longest time and i was always focused just on that academically. though i may have been struggling with it and was not good with it, it was convinced it was for me. what i realized is that, i really just loathed it. i have just been masking it for all this time by convincing myself that is what i like. before long, i soon realized something...

yet, it is hard to imagine how much of a turn my life has taken for me especially since the past 5 months. since the disappointing yet relieving end to the fall semester, i learned that there is more look forward and perhaps a differently path would be brighter for me.

right now, i may not be 100% sure of what to expect in my life or even have my goals written up. but exploring has really helped me and im beginning to learn that there may be something that i'm actually interested in and feel motivated to learn more about. there are so many opportunities to look forward to. though i may still not know what to do with my life, i know that everything will be ok.

i feel like i've something to look forward to and be happy about.

also, thank you to those who guided me through this. i will forever appreciate your support. thank you for bringing my confidence back when i was not feeling it myself. thank you for just listening to the depressing things that i've to say about my life. you know who you are. ;)

regardless, the journey continues...

toodles for now