What If

I'm going to write the score so small, you can't see it. 21-17.

What if? The million dollar question.
Don't we just wish we knew the answer to that question... Or even had a way to turn it all around

Well, on my mind right now is filled with what if questions.
What if Tom Brady's hail mary was caught?
What if Wes Welker caught those passes?
What if Gronk's ankle was healthy?
What if the Patriots won the superbowl?
What ifs...

When you're so close and you can almost taste it, thats when it hurts the most. That feeling that you wallow in, it hurts. Things wouldn't have been so painful if it ended earlier. Losing is the worst feeling ever. Its hard to stand up from it and watch your win slip away from your hands.But, that feeling when some takes something important from you or even what means to be yours, that feeling is heart wrenching and depressing. That is how I feel right now. Depressed, sad and mad all mixed into one.

Despite the most painful thing I have ever watched, the Pats were fighters. Fighters that fought till the end. You can always say that "theres always next year" but does that opportunity really come again? When will the Patriots make the superbowl again? The one thing you believe in lets you down, what are you supposed to do and say? Its not deserving to get mad at them because all they did was try that best. You could thank them for theirs efforts and theres always next year but that is not what it means to be a winner. And, deep down inside you can't help to think of things differently.

But over the course all of it, I have learned that opportunities cannot be taken for granted. Because if you let it slip away, you'll soon start with a stream of what if questions again.

All we can hope for is that one day, in the very near future, that these whats ifs would become a reality so that the Patriots regain that feeling of victory again.

Thank you, Pats. Its been an awesome ride this season. Certainly wasn't perfect. As a fan, I had doubt that we could even make it this far. Thanks for fighting through all the ups and downs this season (injuries and losses) and making it all the way to the superbowl. Thanks for making me believe in something, success, and something to look forward to every weekend, knowing possibility that we could have made it this far. Despite the most painful end, you fought till the end. And that is all we can ask for. This can only make us stronger.

Pats fan, keep walking with pride and keep your heads up because we will soon regain that feeling of victory.

To all my friends and other people I have annoyed you with my Pats obsession, I sincerely apologize for all the annoyance and frustration I have caused you and thank you for baring with my emotions game after game.

Farewell till August, Patriots.